oh blog...how i have neglected thee.

lots to say, alas, no energy to say it. *sigh* i'll just hit you guys with a cool pic of me from my alma mater homecoming. go KSTATE! and, um, go ME...lol

I'MMA HAVE TO...

SLAP ME A MUTHAFUCKA....

YO! WTF?!?!?!?! (green light, 2for1 edition)

*waves* what up peeps?! here's just some more of the shit that makes you (well, me) go #hmmmmmm

- *yelling* LOUISVILLE DRIVERS! when you go to driving school (assuming that you go to driving school...) do your instructors say: "now, when the stop light turns green DON'T automatically start driving, take some time, relax, and think about your next move. it may seem obvious to GO, but it's so much deeper than 'green means go'"

...HUH?! cause that's how yall mofos act...

-soulja boy. please. stop. #thatisall

-lmmfvo. my bestie/roomie got tackled in the club in atl.

<<---picture this guy tackling this girl --->>

...after i made sure she was ok. I.DIED.

but wtf was he thinking/doing?

-keri and ciara have albums dropping the same day. *bbm straight face* oh joy. i'll have to camp outside the store to snag a copy. they'll be flying off the shelves.

-why are ppl so down to defend their cell phones or criticize another person's phone? "i got a droid so i'm better than you" type shit. ugh. nah, bruh, your phone is kinda cool but you're still pretty lame. #baleedat ALL PHONES SUCK #bladdooww

-ew. what is happening to lil kim('s face)?

-dear mario, i remember, on your last album--no, wait, the one before last...whatever--you had a song called 'do right'. there was a little part about your ma in there. it was all beautiful and touching and shit. *sigh* bruh, what happened?

-->>>Although the incident was labelled "unfortunate" by Hassan Murphy III, the singer's lawyer, he also said the altercation was between a caring son and a mother who struggles with a serious drug addiction.

Murphy told CNN that Mario Barrett's mother Shawntia Hardaway continues "to struggle with a devastating addiction" and the alleged physical confrontation between the two revolved around her drug use.

"Anyone who has waged the battle to save loved ones from the forces of drugs knows the irrational behavior that almost always accompanies their actions," Murphy added.
(from cbs news)

******twitter edition******yay********

-whyyyy am i following you?
-why aren't you checking your spelling and grammar before you tweet?
-when did twitter become 'hoodrat chat'?
-why am i following him?
-how are ppl able to post these super sketch pics on twitter? #yuck
-what is with these ratchett ass TT's??? i.e. #thesehoesbe ?????really?????
-when did everyone get so "real"? *bbm confused face*
-why am i following her?
-is it really a good idea to share ALL of your DEEPEST thoughts and emotions with the tworld?
-heck, is it a good idea to share your EVERY WAKING MOMENT AND MOVE with the tworld?
-WHY AM I FOLLOWING YOU?
-who told you twitter made you cool? ha

(psa: many ppl were 'unfollowed' during the consideration of this post. hopefully none were harmed. if they were. who gives a fuck?)

okie dokie...i think thats it for this edition. just a little fuckery to lighten my recent blog mood. *hugs* you know what to do...gargle and spit or savor and swallow. but i offered!

oh yeah, please comment and share any thoughts on these, or other instances of fuckery!!!

ha!

girl: yeah...our honeymoon stage is definitely over

guy: huh? honeymoon stage?

girl: you know, when things are all warm and fuzzy and happy and shit...

guy: oh--over? why you say that?

girl: i mean, it just is...its not necessarily a bad thing tho...

guy: nah, its not over. we're just on a break from it right now.

girl: *side eye* riiiiigghhhtt...

cry.sis. (cont.)

*exhales deeply* so. my co-worker/classmate/friend is not here today. a couple weeks ago, she confessed to us in the office that an ex-boyfriend was harrassing her. sending texts, emails, and fb messages. messages like "we will be together" "i love you forever" and weird shit like, "i have the same initials as obama...isn't that cool?" (#weirdo). anywho, this particular day she was extra nervous. within 24 hours creep had sent over 35 messages to her email (she had blocked him on fb and changed her number). all the same type of creepy messages. but now back to back, aggressive, and more demanding. "give me ur new number". we were def nervous for her. he knows where she lives and seems crazy enough to pop up. i suggested filing a police report, just in case. that was 2 weeks ago. today, she called in. she's crying and hysterical. creep somehow got her number and is calling, texting, emailing her non-stop this morning. she's going to the police.

*exhales even deeper...fighting tears* last week my sister sent a text that read "i love you". this was only weird because i hadn't heard from her in weeks. at all. my mom told me something was going on with her but wouldn't tell me what it was until i came home to visit. "this isn't something you wanna hear over the phone" she said. but i pushed and proded. and regretted. i blew up my mom and sister's phones the day i got that text. i got the most horrible news i could imagine. my sister had been raped a few weeks earlier. my. heart. stopped. regardless of the shennanigans she had been a part of months prior, regardless of whatever she was doing now, she did not deserve this. she thinks its her fault. she's not sure how to deal with it. hell, neither am i.

when will it all just stop...???

yay

i finished my paper. i will not procrastinate like that again. signed, a first year grad student...

blank stare news

#BERRIES

i love these heaux...

no, really. the bond i have formed with these women is priceless. i love them for the great times and getting me through the less than great times...

this helps a little...*exhales*

cry.sis.

for the past few days i have been dealing with something...or, trying to deal with something. i have no idea what to do or say or how to feel. my emotions are scattered, therefore my actions may seem unpredictable. and, sadly, i don't know when this phase will subside. i can't watch certain things on tv anymore. i feel weird about feeling ok. so i go back into sulking only to feel weird about not being ok. "they" always teach you how to (attempt to) deal with trauma in your life, but they never really say anything about dealing with trauma in the life of someone you love very much. (if that's even something you can teach.) so here i am, hurt and confused. and it wasn't even me. maybe i wish it was. heavy. i haven't spoken to my friends about it. i suppose i don't know how. maybe i do know how, but i'm afraid of their reactions, or lack thereof. besides, they haven't asked me why i've been so quiet or distant. so why bother anyway. i wonder when i'll feel normal again. maybe not until she feels normal. not that you can ever feel "normal" after something like this. but perhaps you can. i'm sure it just takes time. and alot of tears.

hope for peace